Kind of pissed off my boyfriend is trying to get me rings from a pawn shop for our engagement. -.-
I just want to cut every artery in my body and leave a note saying I wasn’t good enough for anyone.
My anxiety and depression always gets the best of me. I haven’t cried in months but now I just want to cry forever.
I can’t change who I am. I’m sorry I have a problem expressing my thoughts and when I’m angry I don’t know how to stop and when I’m happy it doesn’t last long.
I’m not a perfect being. I’m still that child inside crying in her closet while her father abuses her mother.
I’m still that teenager that went to a friends house to snort and eat pills like candy when she was upset.
I’m still that 16 year old that drank to the end of a bottle at a party and got raped. I’m still her.
She never leaves me alone.
I just want it to stop so I can love me again. So I can let others love me. So I can really be alive and happy.
My god what has happened to this poor girl.
She needs help but doesn’t know how to fix herself like she fixes every thing else.
I just want to break sometimes.
Don’t worry. If anyone actually reads this, I’m not going to kill myself. I know that’s not the answer. Doesn’t mean I don’t think about it sometimes.