h e a r t b e a t

these are the dates that changed my life.
the boy who taught me how much love and compassion is truly inside of me, he showed me how fast your life can go wrong, and how impossible it can be to fix it.

the second boy, the one who taught me to be selfish. to have fun and stop worrying all the time, to be myself and stop caring about everyone elses problems. he also taught me the love of me. to love myself.
the third date, same boy, turned to man. this is the day we got engaged. he is my teammate, my best friend, my lover, my enemy, my life, and my destruction.
and god, i would never give up my life, not for anything.

"When I look back on all these worries, I remember the story of the old man
who said on his deathbed that
he had had a lot of trouble in his life,
most of which had never happened."
- Winston Churchill

"We are the generation that grew up on angst and pain, that's why we're all insane."
I hope you fall in love
With someone who always texts back and never lets
You fall asleep thinking you’re
I hope you fall in love with someone
Who holds your hand during the scary parts of
Horror movies and burns
Cookies with you when you’re
Too busy dancing around the
I hope you fall in love with
Someone who sees galaxies in your eyes
And hears music in your
I hope you fall in love with someone who
Tickles you and makes you smile
On hard days and on easy
But beyond all that I hope
You fall in love with someone
Who will never leave you behind
And who will never take you
For granted, someone who
Will stand by you when you’re
Right and stand by you
When you’re wrong,
Someone who has seen you at your worst
And has loved you
I hope you fall in love
With someone who
Kisses you in the rain
And hugs you in the cold and
Wouldn’t have you any other
Way. ~Wouldn’t It Be Wonderful, l.h.k. (via ive-been-john-watsoned)

(Source: jane-scaaaare)

You work so hard, just to end up at home crying yourself to sleep; remember you’re trying, you are moving mountains that have plagued you since you were young, and you’re trying so hard.

Keep fighting, fight until you have won. Fight until you have found your way home, until the sun comes back and your heart learns to love the mornings again.

~T.B. LaBerge // Go Now  (via w-ildfires)

(Source: tblaberge)



4 score and 20 years ago i blazed it

now im stoned

(Source: sassyabrahamlincoln)

1. There is going to be someone who will break your heart. He will leave you crying his name out into the darkness of your room at 3AM on a school night. He will consume every thought. You won’t be able to look at the moon without breaking down. He will ruin your favorite places. Make sure he was at least worth all of this pain.
2. When you open yourself up like a book to him, don’t take it personally when he doesn’t tell you about his relationship with his father.
3. And when you see him with someone else for the first time, run the opposite direction. It will hurt. You will cry. He is not moving on, he is trying to get rid of the taste of your lips. Believe it or not, you left a mark on his heart. ~3 things I wish my mother told me before I had my heart broken (via hypnoticangel)

Here’s the things,
I though I loved him,from the very beginning.
But now he shows me these things about him I’ve never seen before and never fathomed him doing or saying.
They say you are supposed to love the person you want to be with forever for who they are in their entirety. But I don’t… I want him to change. But you aren’t supposed to try to change someone you love.

So that leaves the question….
Do I still love him?
Do I even want to marry him?

I don’t know what to do. I have no one to talk to about it….

I apologize for bothering you..